Cleanse Day 19

So yesterday I was boasting about how great I felt and today I guess I'm paying for it!

I'm so Tired.

This always happens to me when I gloat. I'll give you an example. I'm wearing my new high heal shoes and a cocktail dress, I just got my hair and nails done and I'm ready to go on a special night out.

I'm feeling marvelous and confident walking down the street with my head held up high, swaying along (as elegantly as possible).

And then as I turn my head bump I hit the lamp post, my heal breaks or I trip on some miscellaneous object! Every time!

Some of my friends even have bets on how long I can stay intact!

I'm just a clumsy girl. What can I say?

And when I boast a little I can assure you that the opposite scenario is bound to come knocking at my door. Unbelievable! On the bright side it works wonders for the humbleness factor!

So today I was pretty tired, but I was still feeling pretty proud and good about myself. (oh no..maybe I shouldn't write that (laugh)).

Most of my craving are gone and I put on an old pair of jeans and they were loose!

I don't have a scale you see, so I keep a pair of old jeans as my weight monitor! If I can't squeeze into them then I know it's time to watch how many avocados I eat. I must admit that sometimes I just ignore the jeans because I know I probably won't fit into them, even if I sarand wrapped my thighs!

When I'm in denial I love to say that weight doesn't matter but I think that unfortunately it does. The only person who most likely says this is probably skinny and perhaps they want to gain weight  or are conscious of keeping the right weight. I don't think I have ever met a woman and even very few men  for a matter of fact who were not conscious about their weight.

The only time I can really let go of the whole weight issue is while hiking or being close to nature.

But as soon as you set feet into a city it's like all of these signals come to hypnotise you and bombard you with messages of how you should be and look like. The scariest part is that at first glance all of these messages are so obvious and you can even see how ridiculous they are but with time you stop noticing them and they seem to become a part of who you are or how you aspire to be.

It's Very Subtle Indeed.

When I think about people who have never left the city and who are not even conscious of this pressure created by advertisement and T.V, it makes me feel sad.

So now it is time to be so very honest with myself. When I first started the cleanse I said to myself this is to clean my body but who cares about the weight I just want to be healthy! Of course I just want to be healthy and do a deep cleaning but releasing weight is also a great benefit. Voila, revealed. But for some reason I didn't want to admit that to myself! How strange we are at times...

I hope you enjoy this video showing the truth about ads and unattainable beauty ideals

Love
Gabrielle
xx